Emotional mess

Ok, I don't get on here to vent very often so please make an exception for this post. Adoption is full of highs and lows. You honestly have no idea what to expect or when to expect it. Lately I feel like I am a mess of emotions. I try not to let this process get to me and I try to tell myself this is a process. I can honestly say I never would have guessed or known how this process impacts adoptive parents. I am so thankful for this journey but I am ready for it to be over. I know our time will come. I think one of the hardest parts of this is having everyone ask us what is going on. What makes this hard is we have no idea...believe me if we knew when we were going to go get him we would be shouting it from the roof. I understand that people are excited for us and just want to know what's going on. I think of it like this....when you are around someone who is always negative you seem to become more negative. When I am always repeating that we have no news or the news I have I don't want to share...I feel defeated.