The little things

Last night before I climbed into bed I had this overwhelming feeling. I kept telling myself to watch a couple of the short videos we took while we were in Ethiopia last November. I watched one of him crawling over to Caleb, one of him giggling from being tickled and one of him talking. Melted my heart. We had also put a small video together for the work shower we had back in January. I watched that one too. Not being bias here but he has to be the cutest little guy I have ever seen. Just looking at pictures and videos of him makes my heart flutter with so much love. I cannot wait for the day we get to share him with the world. Today was a great day for this girl and I am going to try and keep them coming.

Patience?

It seems like this word gets brought up all the time. Our agency both present and past have asked us to have patience through all of this. People always tell me they cannot believe how long this process has/is taking and that they wouldn't be as patient. If you can please reference the picture to the right. It's Caleb and me....focus closely on my hair....here is where you notice it is red. One thing red heads are not known for is patience. Trust me when I say this journey is hard. I want results....NOW. See what I mean? I think in the adoption world I am a pretty patient person....but ask the people I work with. There is no patience left. NONE...Zip...Zero....Zilch...I guess it is good to release my stress somewhere but I feel bad for the people at work.

We did receive a small update this week that our little guy is growing. He has teeth, walks on his own, shares his toys, is taller and fatter. The updates are great but also hard. I like to hear he is doing well but it also reminds me of everything we are missing. It has been months since we have seen an updated picture. I can only imagine how much older he looks. Trying to keep good thoughts but they are running low at this point. We are over two years into this and I am ready to wrap it up, but not without our little guy.

How many days since we first held him?

Happy Daddy Day

To my husband,
I know that our little guy isn't in our arms yet, but I want to thank you for being such a great example. You are an amazing man and I cannot wait to see you with our son. He is one lucky little guy to have you as his dad. Love you.

6 months

It was 6 months ago today we held our little guy for the first time.

A note to a mother....

To a mother that I have yet to meet. I am not sure if I will ever get the opportunity to thank you in person but I cannot express my gratitude for your brave decision to want the best for your baby. I hope that you have been able to find comfort and peace. In my heart I know that you are a strong and beautiful woman. I know that I will never be his birth mom but I hope that he will be proud to call me mom. I have loved him from the moment I saw his picture and the little info we were provided. He melts my heart every time I think about him. The overwhelming feeling I felt the first time I saw him I knew he was my son. I have never felt my heart so full of love. If there is anything I can do it is to promise to love him, take care of him and provide all that I  can as his mom.

Praying for good news Monday

Because I am tired of this....